I highly suggest talking to a psychiatrist. I had the exact same issue, and I'm now taking buproprion. It's non-addictive, there's no withdrawal symptoms, and it literally just helps you to release more endorphins. I haven't had any issues with not feeling my emotions. Of course, I was somewhat emotionless to begin with...

I wish you the best! Focus on your mental state first and better that first, then do what you love.

i knew of your work since before you finished serenity chapter 1. i was entrhalled and devoured it in one sitting. I never had much hope for games such as this, but you and a handful of others showed me that hope. as someone who has gone through similar experience in terms of depression, i applaud all the work you put in. Ive been in a similar state in my own writing till i basically gave up on it. im glad you didnt. we here are more than understanding of your situation, and are more than willing to wait. the quality of what you produce is something worth the wait. im aware of the emptiness of which you speak. ive experienced it multiple times, both personallly and personally. take whatever rest you need my guy. your health, physical and mental are both important, and i can only hope that you can balance everything as needed. honestly if there was a way for me to fully fund your work i would. the things you have created are incredible, in both story and artwork. i can only hope the best for you, at least for now. i do want to help out someone following a dream i gave up on, and when i can i will. may the winds of fortune fill your sails my friend, i foresee great things for you. get the rest you need and let the juices flow when they do. best of luck to you my man. i eagerly await your next update. you got this man go for it :)

It's good you took a minute to think about it and admit to yourself you suffer with it, my job outside of developing things has involved working around mental health, so it's something I can fully understand, in more ways than one.

Sometimes a break away when feeling that way, can help, but I do agree on the basis of not wanting to be medicated for it, to become numb to things, I personally wouldn't either.

If you would ever like to talk, my dm is always open(I'm on your server, so easy to find).

Keep your head up :)

Xanax is a short-acting anti-anxiety drug used to treat anxiety and panic disorders.

I take it 

i suppose the euphoric feeling would stop depression but if you stopped taking it you would become even more depressed then you started as a withdrawal its fairly (highly) addictive

did you mean something like Prozac?

First let say I hope you do feel better really buuuuut I just wanted to tell you I love you and hate at the same time .

Let me explain 

I hate you because when you started to  write the Last Human you said if your looking for quick sex game this might not be fore you I was hesitant at first but I played it and oh my god I love it,

I loved it so much I played for hours until I made it to the end then I said that's not enough so I played it again  for hours and that is why I hate you (the good kind of hate if there is one) because I can't get enough so then I started Serenity.

But all joking aside make sure you take care yourself you are a talented writer and you make awesome renders.

Best of luck. Been dealing with similar myself and the intrusive thoughts that go along with it are horrible. Feel better soon, even though sometimes it isn't a feeling more a lack of

Hey, I hope you are feeling better! Take care of your health, that always comes first.

As someone who has known you for a while (supported from the beginning of Serenity until I had to drop at the beginning of the year because of my own stuff), I am aware of your work ethic, and as someone who deals with PTSD along with the Depression that comes with it, I can understand how it can come out of nowhere and just slam you down faster than you expected. I have also seen it hitting a lot of people with no experience dealing with it due to Covid among other things. Taking it slow helps, I know from experience. Meds of any sort is an extreme reaction, and glad you didn't go that route. Knowing what that does, glad nobody ever suggested that for me. Take care of yourself, there's only one Fiery!

your health always comes first, we're not going anywhere.  you have a great talent there.

Fire,

I know that it's hard to do, but getting yourself checked out would be a good idea.
At the very least, make sure you are getting sleep and eating. None of us would pick you working yourself into the ground to get an update NOW as opposed to waiting longer for the update and knowing that you are well and happy.

Thanks for your work and for sharing your creativity with us.

- Jimmy

Hey there,

So two things here: first, take your time and look after yourself. I know the capitalist system likes everyone to be at MAXIMUM PRODUCTION all the time, but that's absolutely not a healthy way to live (and is actually counterproductive - not only is work produced when permanently tired and stressed less good than what you'd create in good health, but in the end there's less of it, too).

Secondly: if you possibly can, get yourself assessed by a qualified mental health professional. There are a lot of non-pharmaceutical things that can be done to help cope with mental issues, but which ones help depend on what the root cause of the problems is. Its really important to get a solid expert consultation at the start because the symptoms of (for example) early depression are very similar to those of stress-induced anxiety disorders, ADHD burnout, and probably a bunch of other things. And therapy systems or coping mechanisms that help with one condition can be actively bad for another - in the worst cases, misfiring coping strategies can trap you in a downward spiral that's really hard to either spot or escape from.

Take care, and tell the catgirls that if they don't look after you, we'll shave their tails while they sleep :-)

I definitely get it. Sometimes you just need the right SOMETHIN to get those creative juices flowin again.. Take your time, be satisfied with your story. If your satisfied, then I'm sure that we'll love it too.

just work at your own pace, art takes time.